I really do not like being here , I have thought of selling and moving to a new property , not the best choice since money is really always everyones issues with changes that effect you .
there is only a few months left for the server and all that . I really do not get on the forums and such like I did . Maybe someone can think about taking it completely over by mid January or maybe erlier .
I knew your life would be different forever, you can not go through a things like you have without it being part of you. I wish there was advice I could offer - the only thing that works for me is diving into projects to distract me from life. No normal person should make 108 songs in 4 months. It's just not done, each of them have something different to say, in a different style for different reasons. I was waking up with thoughts of how I despise waking up, due to the having to numb my first thoughts of self worth and purpose... the songs have made my mind wake up with ideas for new songs instead, this lightens my days and gives my ADHD mind something to do. The worst part is I don't think I can even connect with people though my music - so maybe it all will be for nothing - but it's keeping me sane - In a world controlled by money and fear, I just don't enjoy myself as often as I want. I to will always be around, but as for LastOS, I just don't feel the community and "importance" for modding OS's I always
had, I did all this to make my life mean something and for many years, that has gone, as much as I try to get people to be more interactive and engage with the development, it's gone. So I'd not take on LastOS myself as I doubt I'll ever be needed again, if I ever was at all. But it all kept me sane, so not for nothing. Time for me to go crazy I guess.
@Glenn@The Freezer , if it comes down to a final farewell of LastOS ( HERE ) for the people that might not understand the legacy , for me it will be a sad day/night .I am on the verge of deleting my Fakebook account also as that PLATFORM is useless as tits on a bull .
I just blocked all by 14 facebook people myself yesterday morning. I am so drained trying to survive this world, I don't know how people go to work and do it honestly. I found out today that I am the only one volunteering because I want to, all the others have had the government say they have to or be cut off welfare. I was just surprised, it doesn't mean any less for them, just thought I'd mention it as I only go into it for 4 hours a week, with a few extra call in's from time to time. but I mostly spend my time at home, stripping laptops and PC's back to parts, doing dusting and thermal paste then building them back up. Installing LastOSLinux and Last10 IoT on them (some don't like Linux, due to early UEFI or weird dual graphics etc. I've never asked for anything back. I just know I can't be the leader - they even offered me a paid position where I work, I said no, because I am unreliable (especially when asked or expected to do things), money doesn't make me care more, it makes me care less and have stress
That is the only reason I don't want to take on control of LastOS, because I do not have the stability to do the day to day, I've never been doing that as I know my limits. It's not that I don't want LastOS to survive, it is somewhere I visit multiple times a day, I respond to as many posts as I can answer. I just can't be expected to do so, or my AuDHD says, nope, I'm out, so wouldn't work for me.